When Things Weren't Going Right... A Story of Imperfections and Failures!

• There was the post-Diva!!! 4 years without working in what I loved. Four years waiting for the role. (Because I was told to be careful with roles of blonde nanny girls so as not to become one in the eyes of the world and because, still young, I believed the warnings that were sounded for me.)
• So four years without much money, we are not entitled to unemployment insurance when we play.
• A role came along with some great offers that I turned down to stay with my baby. (Money and unemployment insurance were never my go-tos. Since choosing this career, I've learned to juggle blank pages and jump into the void.) It's not a failure, but six years this time before getting another role... so you can understand that I know about lines of credit (even if I grew up the opposite of them: "never borrow...").
  
• A first big idea I had was to found a school for my son. So far, wonderful: three years later, it opened its doors, immense happiness, a selfish achievement for my son as much as altruistic, because it was not a livelihood. I was only a mother, but newly accomplished with life changes around me thanks to this crazy idea realized. OK... so another idea arrived, then that of making DVDs of dancing with baby for moms (and dads) at home... Hmm, my lover believing in me and wanting to encourage me invested a lot at a time when DVDs were no longer selling. I suddenly carried on my shoulders a very enormous responsibility; It's not that our DVDs weren't good, a professional troupe of Cubans there in magical settings, filmed cinematically, everything was there and a pediatrician whom I respect to the highest degree was in contact with me thanks to the brilliant idea behind them... but we never saw the amount invested again.
• With the few pennies received, I wanted to "repay" this hole in our journey and these few pennies were used for the programming of jmagazine without knowing where I would go with the latter, but with the conviction that the need was there and blindly taking my first steps as a "communicator and unifier" that I would assume some two years later as my talent or my mission. I had to believe in it strongly and write tirelessly for 18 months for a few hundred, then thousands of people who came to read what was happening here.
• "Breathing Happiness" written with my second baby in my arms was also an impulsive response to "letting children cry"; at the end of writing, I met my editor who would become a friend and who was blown away by the content of the book. He didn't know me or didn't know me well (like many who rely on the trace left by the blonde nanny embodied at the beginning of their "career"). He believes in the scope and need of this book, just like the pediatrician I met with the DVDs; I believe in it too! But people misunderstood this new vocation... and I was in my "has-been" period of 6 years of hiatus, nothing to help my cause, people could think that I had written to exist and yet (but by dint of believing in it, it was reprinted and became a bestseller... 4 years later!). In the meantime, I was rather alone at my first book fair and we inherited the boxes of unsold books from the supermarkets; We could have gotten depressed seeing our children building towers, castles, an estate! With these... Added to those on the DVDs...

So when you arrived by the hundreds at the launch of my second book "Vive la détox" which my publisher friend had believed in, despite the figures I hadn't met with the first, believe me, you capsized me. I had never known "success". I wrote for 10 of you, then for 100 of you and 1,000 of you and suddenly there were 6,000 of you, including 1,200 in my garden telling me that all the copies of my book had been sold in 5 days. A few days without sleep, without understanding what was happening and if I was up to it. Marie-Claude Savard arrived at the right time to tell me: "Use this force, it is health that wants to reach more households." That was what I needed to hear.

You taught me that by persevering and believing and doing with the heart and authenticity, we arrive at our X, in our flow. So I have remained in this very precise place since: close to my heart, my instinct, my convictions and aligned with your needs, with my truth to maintain this authenticity which knows how to communicate.

What can we learn from these failures spread over several years? Just because the idea isn't good doesn't always mean it doesn't work. A whole host of factors need to be skillfully aligned, and let's face it, it also takes a little luck... and a lot of perseverance!