I am extreme and passionate. I don't have the truth, I have my truth. I don't do things to convince, but to bring people together.
If you only knew how happy I am, how I appreciate every moment. I'm always with him. You know me, I'm a kangaroo mom, I always carry my baby with me. You won't see me with a stroller anytime soon! I love it so much! Yes, it limits my activities, but I can't help it. I'm grateful when I lie down at night and he's on me, what a unique feeling of well-being. I feel so good, safe, abandoned, and I appreciate this moment, so much...
So I have no chair for him, no bath, no playpen... I carry him and adapt. And I feel so good. I can't do otherwise.
I heard a specialist (without children) say that the role of the father was to tear the baby away from the mother to get attention. Hmm. Yet, when my lover sees me with our child, he finds me beautiful, seductive, feminine. Above all, we have always found our moments, but never at the expense of the well-being of our child. And we still love each other more than before. What if the role of the father was instead to admire and value his wife?
I didn't know I would become the lioness who defends her protégé's safety. I discovered it with this strength that wouldn't let anyone get in my way.
During my first pregnancy, a doctor was monitoring me because he told me that I could not carry or have children. During an ultrasound, he could no longer find the heart, it had stopped beating and as comfort he found to tell me "I told you so"...
When I hear about women who can't have children, I understand. I've been blessed by this. I deeply wish this for all those who would like to bear and have a family.
What changes between motherhood at 30, 35 or 42 years old? I enjoyed each moment so much. To the point where I couldn't have another baby until my big brother was 5 or 6 years old! To enjoy every moment so much, every smile, look, learning... every sleep! I'm a mother day and night. I love nights with my baby. Yes, the first weeks are more tiring. Then around 2 months it seems that the fear leaves me. At 42, it's even less exhausting than at 35, is it the baby? Is it the vitality that is winning me over more and more (Mrs. Starenkyj comforted me when I told her that we wanted another child, she replied that the age of health was more important than the age of the calendar)? Or is it because I go to bed at 8 p.m.? :)
Night comes and I am happy (as I am when I see the sun rise and realize that a day begins with it, with my loved ones). The nights are muffled and take me back to our first moments. I like to comfort day and night and I love how we find each other, like in those first moments. The nights are also creative! I live them, I am aware of it since we wake up so often. I have always appreciated ideas (you know, they are my beginnings of everything).
Thank you to all our colleagues who come to my house for meetings so that my baby can be part of them, nestled in my arms. Special thanks to my mother who often rocks me so that I can write. Thank you to my children who watch over me, tenderly, so that I can take a shower. Thank you to my lover who does everything so that I can rock him.
He also likes to say that the baby is mine, and that it will be his in a while!!!
I am the same mother at 30, 35 and 42, but I am not the same woman because for my children, I have accomplished (school and garden for Louis, Breathe Happiness and dance mom with baby with Charles and with Jonathan, ... you will know it soon!). I am the same mother who appreciates every moment, day and night and who does not want to take a vacation from being a parent. I am the same mother, but I go to bed at 8 p.m. to be in good shape at night.
Thank you, my children. Thank you, life, and thank you, my lover, who loves the mother that I am...
...and who makes me this green juice in the evening and thus gives me energy for the night and nutrients for baby and me!
I'm not the only one who wants to work with a baby. Tonight, I started fantasizing about teachers with their children in their classrooms, employees with a dedicated baby corner nearby, and so on. I'm sharing my dream with my boyfriend, who also sent me this entire article on "baby at work" ! What if all it took was asking?
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